Been not updating my blog recently. No mood. Not knowing what should I do, Things had been going smoothly all this while until last week. Dear would be stopping his work end of this month. My heart sink when I heard that. He told me not to worry so much, he could have job easily since he have class 5.

This not the worst..
The worst is my precious...
Bring him for injection last week. Requested for full body check up as well.
Found out.. His bones near his heart was deep inside.
Doctor suspect it might be pressing against his lung and causes him breathing difficulties.

Called evelyn, cried when i heard her voice. It been a long long time since i cried. I bet I can't take it anymore.
Finally I've got a stable job. I wanted to buy him so many thing. So many, that i can't imagine. I wants to save alot alot of money for him, to go to good school, to have a better lives. And this incident just flash through my life.

He's going to have a check up on the 13 of feb. But I m so worry of the outcome. This time round, I m really really scared.
Lousy mum like me
Not treasure this little life in my stomach, Kept putting hatred on him. Smoke and smoke non stop.
Always blame him for not having freedom and being a burden in my life.
But now. I really really wish nothing could happened to him.

♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
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