Went to kkh today. i could finally put the biggest stone in mai heart down le. phew.. bb's fine and for the time being he doesn;t need any operation. Docter wants us to go back 6 month later to see whether the lump is growing or not. If it is dan gotta go for operation liao. But for the time being, i can have a peace of mind le. After kkh went to bugis for some walk with mai mum. And have the QQ noodle as i had wanted to eat when was with evelyn that time but was too bloated to take anymore. Hmm. actually it nn different from S98 that time de lahz. It just that the price had goes up nia. Went to bugis for some shopping. Wonder y every little girl loves going out mummy? hee hee. Mummy bought 1 shirt and jeans for me. Had wanted to buy jean so much as i dun even have one ok? Decided to have ine when i lost weight. Told dear bout this and he wanted to but dezen of kit kat for me tonight! hmmm hmmm. Reach home, my whole body aches!~ Got to catch, carry, look after a little monkey is not ez enough especilly my little one. Tend to run about. wah lao


Saw little boy at kkh that makes me can't even forget and was so xin ku. He was bout 1 year plus i think. He was unable to walk, lying on his pram. His body was bloated as well as his face. His face doesn't has any expression. Mai heart aches so much. How could god torture a small little one like him. Saw his mum inject something on his throat and he doesn't react to it. Is he used to it or he dun feel the pain at all. And i hated maiself so much. I tend to be selfish and do i really dispise him. Even me maiself was so confusing. bb wanted to play with him and i grab him and walk to the other side. I was so scared and i really hated maiself so much for doing that where i think i couldn't have done it. hmm hmm



P.S: Anyway girl~ thank for being there for me. I know u guyz have been giving much patient on me. And thank for encouraging me.Especially to evelyn. I know u had alway been there for me. When i down like now, u never avoid me and even ask me out. Pay for mai everything when we're out where u r having a little ones to support. Truly thank and sorry.

♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
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