Was suppose to go ah ting house today to meet up with val and ariel, but ended up quarrel with him again. told ting that i can't go over le. She reply me that she's expected! it huring seeing this message. I wanna go as well. I truly so tired. Y can't I go out. He alway say I can't keep my promise of reaching home before 9. But i wanted to spend more times with friend, i only went out with mai friend once in a month or maybe not even once. Y can't i stay longer with them. I's so tired of finding reason saying mai mum dun gib mi money, I'm lazy or whatso ever. but i truly wanna go out! Everytime i go out, mai heart could start pumping when it reaches 8pm. Everyone hasn't shop enough and i eventually requested to go home. I know everyone is fed up of me, i try to call him and request for later abit. But the it also end up with quarrel. Where a cheerful day for me turn out to be ......
Told him how i feel, about since he can't pei me, dan y can't i find mai own entertainment. Ended up, i was still the one in fault, telling me before we r together he already told me he can't have much times with me. But i dun wanna hear this. He's alway talking bout REASON and PROMISE. But i want him to understand how i feels internally. I bet he dun, forever. i do not know whether i wanna end this suffering or to continue.

♥It's going to be a long way to go. Be strong $ move on♥
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